On my last thursday in Cebu, i met up with aiying..
she was from work..
we had dinner..
then we decided to stroll around ayala..
we went to the 'terraces'..
nagconcert ang 'freestyle'..wow!
naminaw lang mi while we seated at a flower box near 'banana leaf'..

she told me: "picturan tka dha oh!"
ako: ok ra..
aiying: ambi mu phone..
ako: layo man..
aiying:utro
ako: hm! di nako..
aiying: ako na lang..heheheh

we strolled some more while aiying decided that she wanted a picture of the

'banana leaf'
and

the astonaut from 'TGIfridays'..

i took a video of the UBER nice 'freestyle' while people were dancing to their
'single ladies' and 'boom boom pow' music..
(na-inlove ko kadjot sa isa nila ka vocalist,who also plays the keyboards,
the vocals on their version of 'half crazy).


super!!!!


we stopped at the water terraces..

at the back was where the concert was held.

murag nangihi..hahah!


super chikka!


i missed this!..


jokir kaayo among gistoryahan..
super qoutes:
^'hoi ayaw, ko ana-a..naa kay *toot* nganong *toot* mung gamiton!'
^'pagpuyo..maypagmatulog..'
^'unsay you started out young? kalimot ka nako?'
^'hoi, pagagpas dha! gikapoy nako!'
^'i think, naa na jd ko sa anger..'hahahah!'

i slept at aiying's pad that night (k wa nako kabaw unsaon ug uli-heheheh)..
grabe among chikka, nakatulog mig 4am..

daghan kaayo ug sulod iyang phone..hahahah!


goodluck sa trabaho ni aiying karn..hahahah!

WA KA NAGDUKA YING?HAHAHAH!

pink!

This was actually in 'Taoist Temple'. but, on our way home,
we saw another temple named 'phu sian'..
i just wanted pink!heheheh! gets?!

when: October 25, 2009
with me: ailee, jan-jan, jp..
location: taoist temple, cebu, philippines.


Located in the wealthy residential suburb of Beverly Hills about 6 km north of downtown Cebu..

entrance.

if you climb the 99 steps to the entrance, you will be rewarded with a good view of Cebu City
and
in the distance Mactan and Bohol islands.
Nice sunset views too.

The temple has an elevation of 300 meters above sea level..

Built in 1972, the Taoist Temple is constructed in a highly ornate and,
some would say, gaudy style of Chinese architecture,
and is topped with a pagoda-style roof.

only theirs..



dragon..

'not-so-great-wall' of taoist..heheheh

'tunnel' where they sell their very own chinese products..


tikoy..

red columns..

coy pond..

red gate.

very bare outside wall..



ALEGRE!

lapu-lapu..(hm?!)

when i was a child, i have always wondered where on earth could be this 'cross'..
now, i have my answer!yehey! it took 25 years i know, but i still want it..=)
when: October 24,2009


Magellan's cross..


the original Magellan’s Cross is encased in the tindalo wood cross displayed in the center of the chapel. This is to protect it from people who chipped away parts of the cross believing it has miraculous powers or as souvenirs. Some, however, say that the original cross planted by Magellan was destroyed or lost and what stands there now is a replacement planted by Spaniards who came after the Portuguese explorer.


Candle vendors here at my back (with the same color as i am wearing,hehehe)
are different in any other churches; in the basilica, they dance their prayers in that two-step-forward,
one-step-backward rhythm called the “Sinug”.



mao rani akong gusto papicturan sa cebu, actually..
but, daghan pa man gwapo papicturan, so go...


Basilica Minore del Santo Nino..


located right in the heart of downtown Cebu City, is way, way older–
it is the Philippines’s oldest church

Its towering facade blends Muslim, Romanesque, and neo-classical architecture,
this church of the Se�or Santo Ni�o de Cebu–
which translates literally as “holy child of Cebu.”

as the church could not accommodate the growing number of people who come to hear mass in the basilica

a pilgrim center was built within the church compound and priests officiate mass in the open-air, theater-like structure.



inside the Basilica...


a painting exhibit of 'the church's history'

i am not catholic, but i was fascinated with the interiors of the church!
amazing!
i wanted a picture of the ceiling, but the picture was not that clear..=(


at the side of the main church..

a "viva italia" inspired garden..
at my front are benches which we were not able to take a picture of because all were occupied..

this was at the back of the fountain..

the terrace was really nice to look at..



at the front of the main church..

the image says, "we remember...we celebrate...we believe..."

Today, the church draws devotees, churchgoers, tourists, pilgrims, and candle and other vendors.
it is believed that a wish could be granted by lighting a candle..



outside the church proper...

the city hall..


and many more pictures outside..

screened messages..

i have never thought that a day would come where i would have to deny myself of that last chance of seeing him. but, i did.

i came to Cebu because i wanted to get a clearer view of the picture. i wanted to hear what jan-jan would have to say, because she (aside from mila) knew the whole story. i wanted to hear what i have been dreading to hear for years now, what they have been telling me all these years now, and i have chosen to suppress all these years, now.

i have actually closed my ears and my eyes of what was truly happening. i wasn't objective. i would always have reasons to justify everything, because i loved him dearly, deeply. but i guess, as they say, "nothing lasts forever". i have to open my eyes wide enough to see that i maybe in love, but he may not be..anymore..

i have believed in "one great love" all these years, and that is probably why, i have never moved on..i would always picture the scene where a man, no matter how many perfect women he'd meet, no matter how many nice places he'd go to, he will always return to that "one great love" he has always preferred over all the nice and perfect things in the world. I would be his "one great love" and he would be mine. but, that was not actually that simple. true enough, he went to nice places, met-up with perfectly nice women, and unfortunately, never came back for me.

my friends would tell me that i have to make my decision, and whatever that decision may be, i would have to stand up for it. as my other post says, i have never really been angry with him for what had happened. and it was the major reason why i came over to Cebu. i was afraid that, if we see each other again, i would RECONSIDER my decisions, for sure. some say, 'adik man kaha ka!', i know. and i refuse to be in rehab.=(

two days ago, my heart jumped over a text message i was not expecting at all! it took me hours to decide if i should reply, and at last i did. i am happy because, now, more than ever, i am more objective. because now, more than ever, i know that i cannot make a decision for myself alone because every time i get depressed, i affect the people around me somehow. so, wen he insisted that we should talk personally, i was certain that it could not happen, anymore!

i know it was not what my heart was saying..but, i have given my heart enough time to decide for us, but never came out good. at least for me..

i would not have wanted to post these but, i also want to have something to refresh myself up if in the future i screw up again..

these were my last text messages to him..

date:october 22,2009

from me:

*am giving you peace. sa tinood, bisan ask pa nimo janjan ug mila, wala ko'y kasuko nimo.. mao, i hate myself. i wish i am, so i could mask all the pain. If you love her, am letting you go. i can't see you get hurt because you are lying to her somehow. Am trying to accept that i could no longer have you ever, not tomorrow or in the future. It sure hurts more than words could express, but i guess it's the price of loving too much and not leaving something for myself. i have not regretted loving you because i was always extremely happy with you. I just wish you were also with me. Am sorry f everything i have done wasn't enough, it was all that i am. Thank you for being part of my life, sincerely. and sorry if i have hurt you in many ways, it was all unintentional. i sincerely wish you both happiness. It's just that, am not ready to see any of you nor any of the people who would remind me of you...

him: hope, mulipas rani..balik sa normal atong panag amego..

*i can never be your friend, for sure. i can never be nice to you anymore, because i never want to see again..seeing you, and having you around would just mean bringing back all the pain..so, if in the future you see me from afar, please try to ignore me because i will for sure ignore you..but if, we can't avoid bumping into each other,i can be civil to you..It will take time, maybe we can be friends when we're very old..maybe..

him: i'll hope and pray..

*you don't have to punish yourself thinking you'll repay for everything. you just made a choice, unfortunately, the choice didn't favor me.. i can only be sorry for myself, you don't have to share the misery with me.. you made a choice because it will make you happy and it was what your heart was saying..so stop caring about what i feel, because i honestly don't get the point. you preferred hurting me, it's done..nothing you'll say can EVER take it away.. so, apology is enough, have a happy life..


janjan's proud of me.she said it's good that i am making a better decision, it's just that she's not sure of until when i can hold on to the "decision". She's worried what will happen if the day would come where i have to finally see him..

i also do not know what will happen, so until i know what to do then, i would have to make sure that no piece of them will come my way..hihihihhi

untill then..

walk "the walk"..

*I.T. park

janjan: gusto ka papicture dri gai?
guenee: d ko ui! tanan na lang nianhi ug cebu, nagpicture dra.
janjan: kaw gd..

nilabay sa "the walk"

guenee: jan?
janjan: o?
guenee: picturi na lang ko b?hhihihh
janjan: mao ka! hahahahah


guenee: kita duha jan!


janjan's friend: again!


guenee: sakto na!
janjan: mao! mura nakog yaya nimo!
guenee:*exag!*

*i didn't bring camera with me to cebu k i had other purpose of coming here. so wen "picture-taking" moments come, we just use our phones! Big mistake!*

on the other hand, i might have another reason to be back! to take better pictures of cebu!heheheheh

i belong..

almost everywhere i go to nowadays, i seem to belong...to the surroundings..hahahah

we had lunch at kfc, and everything was red. i wanted janjan to take a picture of me with the chairs because i was also in red. but, unfortunately, customers started to come in and i got shy..hahahah!

so, instead of the kfc "i belong picture", janj

an just took a picture of me in a cellular shop with red chairs and tables..the picutre isn't of good quality though, but nevermind..i still like it..

thanx jan..*winks*

felda jane..

i missed her!

she's 5 months pregnant and beautiful..

new!

am a changed girl!hahahah..

girl raman d i ghapon..pwede woman? :(

i just changed my hair..'wink'